Stuck

I know it has to get done, but yet I leave it until the last minute. A couple months ago I was on top of things. Now I am letting everything go. I'm seeing it all disappear. I wonder what has changed. Something must be missing. The spark is gone and I need to fight for it back. I cannot wait for the summer. Hopefully things will be a lot better then. 

I'm Scared

There is a fear within me and it just won't leave. I thought I finally knew what I wanted/needed but I am letting it all just slip away. I'm not enjoying my days and find myself living in the sidelines again. I hope I bounce out of this state soon and breakout.