Letting Go

Why is it that some people get under your skin and just stay there? Sure, you share great memories with them but they messed up. Why does one still wish to have them in our life's. You know it's not in your best interest to keep in contact with them but you still worry about them. Is that love? Or is it a sense of failure that you still want to work on it until you succeed? 

I know I deserve better than you. Back then you were great. Now I just view you as a monster who destroyed a great friendship. You use to carry yourself with such pride and now you seem to whore yourself around. Yet you always manage to take every opportunity to make me feel small. After everything, I just wish the very best for you. The feeling is finally fading, but I'm afraid you've had such a great impact in my life that I will always remember you. 

Bye my friend. 

New Light

I was starting to doubt myself. Doubt my abilities to further my education. However, this weekend I received an acceptance letter to a highly competitive program! I'm so excited for what's to come. I was able to register for the classes I need and I like the instructors. I have realized how much I value structure and organization. Good teachers are hard to find, but when you find them you are grateful. Now all I need is a shot of energy because I will be constantly busy these next five weeks. Here I come summer session!

Finals

I took my English 102 final this afternoon. Finally over!!! Tonight I'll be taking my economics final. I'm completely scared of this final. I hope everything turns out great and I'm just so happy that after 10pm tonight spring semester will be over for me! Not my best semester but all I can do now is try my best this summer session (that is if I even get the classes I need! Damn these budget cuts!). Wish me luck.

Outings

Planning a night out is always exciting. It is always a good excuse to buy new outfits and enjoy some free time. Going out also gives one hope in meeting someone that will, at least for that night, make you feel special. I've realized that clubs and bars are not were I will find a love interest but it is always fun to flirt and feel desired. HA. I've been told many times to let go from that fairy tale notion of what is love but I refuse. 

I don't know if I've ever fallen in love or if it was just lust but I want to feel butterflies in my stomach again. I want to smile when I think of that person and know that I make them smile too. I want the late night calls and the "i miss you" text messages. I don't want to be around drunks every weekend but instead, holding the one I care for in my arms and feeling their warmth. As thrilling as nights out can be, I would rather be whispering sweet nothings in your ear. 

Oh boy, this blog turned into the story of a lonely boy. Hahaha. If your out there, Hi :) ...